Reading again...

 Will collect hopefully meron sa mga bookstore dito sa Manila

Searching for the taste that once were sweet. 

Needing to feel alive again.

Living , breathing the life that once upon a time I live.

Sta Lucia

My fambam went to Sta Lucia today.

We had early dinner in our chinese resto, though the beef tendon is not available.

It was Buchoy's first time in Sta Lu, alst time we left him to his lola only Chuchay came with us.

Anyway both babies ate fried shrimp dumplings, this time Choi sat in hugh chair (aww) Chai sat next to her tatay in big chair na, time flies too fast :(

So after we had dinner, tatay did widraw where Chai Choi and I went for a quick tour at dept store. Theres a mini push cart and my Chuchay pushed it like crazy lol we bought tissue folds since tagal ng wla sa baba (robinson). Then we bought dairy queen medium mango cheesecake, then Chai and Choi ate it in Bo's where tatay and I had our coffee. Mines favorite which choco mocha and tatays plain americano.

So as usual we played, chuhcai ran like crazy while choi hablot everything muntik na pitcher ni Bo's. Then nag dede den sya 4oz. Chai naman sinusubuan ako ng ice cream. Cute nila si tatay phone online gamble haha! So ayun Chai and I had quick tour while Choi was asleep kay tatay nya. We went to National book store, cute kase may free si Chai na "glass" daw haha! Hirap nya pull out of the pink door kala ata nya it was Kidzoona. Then 8:30Pm we went sa ground floor chck on lumang snacks sa grocery pero we cant find it so we went home around 9pm dun kami dumaain sa may petshop sa elevated walk way :) we tried to sakay taxi since wla nag tryk nanaman kami pauwi mas safe kasi open. After we caught covid-19 we always try to ride open if not private car. So ayun, babies took a bath kami den then watch HIT sa netflix then sleep. 

Now I am still awake, tatay din. Im still going to work lapit nako mag resign sa Accenture will give my last contribution. Yun lang will prder also in points yung Carheart ba yun na bag for tatay :)

This is a good day, will upload photo later pa.

Thank you Lord for all the blessing, the simplicity of life and everyday waking up with my love ones.

Thank you for all, we Love you papa Jesus!!!

xo,

Fran

Hello Babies!

 Hello World!

Today is thrisday just an ordinary day. While on call, listening to defender for cloud I just need to post my bebe boy just after kumain ng papaya and still eating sa crib ng mamon! 

And currently andito si chuchay breastfeeding!

may kuliti pa yan sa right eyes pagaling na haha!

Love my babies <3

Last Order - Acn Edition

 

Last order to accenture rewards before the tata! It feels surreal having coming back for more than 10 yrs after and then here I am again saying goodbye.

Collecting memories again, but this time it feels like I am just passing by to say Hi to old colleagues, and also to new colleagues – and then now this Im saying good bye again.

It’s been a good ride and I thank Accenture for giving me yet again another opportunity though it is far from my practice I wholly accept it atleast I had a great time enjoying less work and more time with my babies. And ofcourse a lot of time resting after childbirth. I know this is not the end and last, I will keep coming back for retirement. But for now I bid farewell to seek for better future with my babies and hubby. Thank you once again mothership see you on the flip side! Mwah!

Peace today

I am sitting here in my desk just finished my dinner from yesterdays Italiani's left over . Dim light, low toned news about Russia and Ukraine playing at the background, wet hair and towel just hanging around my shoulder. Babies in the room, yaya cradling the youngest, husbands out and Im here trying to find my own little quiet peace.

While I was eating my dinner, I cant help but stare at fridge, those pictures of Jose and I having the best times of our lives traveling. Boracay, Macau, Hongkong, to name the few. Singapore when I attended my friends wedding and when i last travelled abroad with my sister (hopefully we'd chance again). While I brushed my teeth i stared outside the window, dim light outside the corridor finally I'm not in a hurry. I bathed my babies and fed them milk already just getting ready to doze off.

Now I need to go and try to make the eldest sleep so I can use my cp - she's always holding it. 

Talk to you again soon!

Birthday and Sunday's Best

 

The Birthday Girl.

Afternoon Walks at Circulo Verde

 Yesterday, Tuesday, Eloise, my husband and I went to Circulo verde for a walk. It was nice afternoon around 4pm. My baby boy Khaled stayed home with his yaya we couldnt just bring him outside since he's still 3 months young and not yet baptised. I just feel he can easily be "bati" by people for some reason.

So while we walked back and fort, the sunset basked allover the street engulfing our fellow walkatoners along culdesac. The street is merely a wide road with skaters, bikers, runners and "walkatoners". While my Eloise is busy singing her favorites tunes, baby shark, twinkle twinkle little star, excavator, to name a few I savor the moment spent with her (and the dad too). I know this is a bit sentimental but hey that moment is the only time she can ever be that young and kulit and cute. Well I know for a fact that she will forever be the cutest. I had fun just staring at them mag ama, I could never exchange these simple moments for the world. While she walks and run while her tatay kept following her and reminds to slow down and stop I just stared smiling wishing moments like these never end. She will grow up and our hair will turn grey, and only these memories will live on in our hearts.

In time, Khaled will join the club. Sibs will probably run together conniving how to get away with tatay.

I live for moments like these as a mom, to dream for the best - for my babies and my family.

I never thought in my wildest dream I could ever have this kind of life field with joy and laughter and so much love (it hurts). Whilst we can never get rid of worries and pain and problems of life - important thing is we are in this together to love and to hold.

For my Eloise - know that you are never alone. You are love and important. I am your mama, and will forever will I protect and serve you my baby.

For my Khaled - From the day you were born I knew I found my first love. You are my sweetheart no matter what happens I am your mama. Will be here for you to love and serve for eternity. Please anak dont iwan us agad with your gf. kidding (but thats really something you have to think about when you grow up)

To my husband - you know I love you, actually even when I havent met you yet. I knew it was you, it is always you all along my hon.

Actually I wrote this blog because I wanted to share sana the clips while Eloise and her tatay sang along "twinkle twinkle little star" while strolling along the riverside. Its so cute but since my gallery is full it was cut short. 

Also we came across papa in his bike.

Enjoy!

What Life is Like with Two Under Two

 First and foremost my two babies are aslepp, yes ikn the afternoon. I got them tied down at 2:10 PM in the afternoon. Well the father had just kept Chesca circling around outside the corridor for minuts while I do the little one (breast feeding).. The lo is fidgety so I had him tied down in a blanket.

So after a 45 mins breask Im back again, i know you didnt notice ha!

With 2 under 2 you almost want to do everything you used to do like write, do the laundry, watch netflix, youtube, fold clothes etc but you just cant. The situation wont just allow you. So I end up fed up mostof the time. I am fed up. Without helper, only my partner it's nuts!

Now Im trying to finish the laundy, drink cofee, write, play music background to atleast find my own piece of sanity. I just dont want to loose my cool it benefits my babies in the long run.

I cant be burntout, but Im always burn out. Im tired but I have no choice but to push forward. Do the things like make the babies sleep, make them not cry, make them milk, order diapers, buy milk, think of food for my 1 yr and 8 month old baby. All of these contributes to anxiety, my anxiety, I suppose mom anxiety. MOM is the hardest job. it is! 

I need to make sure that I attend to all their needs while meeting my needs for my well being as well to support them and eventually effectively take care of them and the family as a whole. It isa tough 24x7 job, so I understand why some young mom just give up cause I dont know maybe they simply cant. Im an adult and most of the time I find myself quitting - if there is such a thing as quitting mom. Dont get me wrong I love my babies but moma needs to recuperate too!

I want to be a good mom, dont know if im doing it right but I pray to God I am. Just making sure they are well attended to the vaccines, the food, the milk, the naps, sleeping at night on time, the right toys for their age, the right movie to play for their age, the cuddles and million times I love yous and hugs and kisses.

Oh moma, You are truly a Rockstar!

Now back to work!!!!!!!

Tired

 What it means to be a mom? Tired, worried, burned-out, scared, loved and bliss all the same time.

When I say tired it literally burned me out, like physically mentally emotionally. The fact that it is only us, parents who are taking care of the 2 under 2 is a little too much.

I remembered there was a time I stayed the whole day with Eloise in bed, I cried and sent our pic to mama (with me crying). I totally balled out. Now breaking down is just as normal as drinking cold coffee. BTW it is still fucking pandemic so its normal to stay the whole fucking day 24x7, 7x a week AT HOME. And I am talking about 2 straight fucking years of insanity with the wild babies and helpless dad of 2. Eloise, my eldest is not even 2 yrs old and I feel God damn old hog, worn out and wasted bitch.

Lord, I am not complaining - i know right off the bat that this could be it - the end of my zen life. But man did I not see it coming that "MOM - LIFE" is no life at all. Though its ironic since my babies are my life.

Kudos to my mama who carried 3 bitches under the hood with little to know money. With papa working a far - for who knows if he can handle the bills but didnt level up and carried on with his own not so working ways - anyways.

To think that my partner will leave in  like days to work abroad is freaking me out but pretend to stay cool and maintain can handle it look but dead on the inside actually, IS INSANE.

My mama will take over. And I dont know if we can carry on given that she is already a senior citizen. Well we tried having putanginang katulong but they all scammers. Oh well those mother fuckers , making a living and benefitting from those good amo like us. Putangina nyo talaga.

What I feel: 

    Helpless...

What I look forward to: 

    Restful slumber, massage, me time, this fucking pandemic to end and travel with kids.

What I pray:

    Nobody in my family gets sick and die without getting a good life (Travel, Money, Food, Luxury) - JOY & HAPPINESS.

This is me rumbling,

KENDI

Hi loves,

I have so much on my plate but still manage to blog, finally! While everybody is still sound asleep it's 5AM and im trying to make my own coffee, I would like to review baby bottles, the ones that I experienced using with my babies.

By the way I have two under two, yup it is crazy but fulfilling and thats another story. What I am here for are the baby bottle brands as well as the age group they are best used for.

In the beginning, wait ill just fix my coffee. LOL

by the way this is my coffee moccana hazelnut flavor (normally I go for Folger, but this one is new my husband bought it) then I add bearbrand milk my fave and muscovado.

Going back, in the beginning my Eloise used Pigeon right away. I bough like 4 pcs of 4 oz. But colic became a challenge so I took my friends advice (Gel) to avoid colic to try Dr Browns. So my husband bought 9oz. I did not saw the result right away, we still opt for pigeon and then restime (Khaled's pedia advised us not to use it, it has tama daw in brain). But Eloise's colic is extreme so we resorted to constant assisted burping and acete de mansanila. I also tried the como tomo, the pink one but to no avail it's not stuck in the cabinet. It shapes like my boobs (cause I also breast feed - but not enough) but it did not last since the body which is silicon often catches hair, dirt so thats the cons.

So this is the actually photo of when I used to express my bm for Eloise. While I drink my malunggay coffee lol.

The wide neck pigeon is the one I use until now for Eloise, until I realize as per her papa, that milk is causing her teeth to decay. And front teeth already has started showing brown discoloration. I wonder if its caused by teats. And so just about awhile ago I ordered Dr Brown's bottle with sippy teats.

Here is sample vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mdgh83zoqrs

I bought the blue one, wide neck 9 oz.

So for Khaled, this one is tricky he is premat one week early so given his nec complications (which was mild by the way) I considered buying Dr browns wideneck for normal flow not premat. At first his papa bought Chicco boy gift set for him, knowing he really is not familiar with the best brand for his babies as usual it didnt worked, my son didnt like the teats - even Eloise. So we used the Pigeon the yellow one but again it produces so much bubbles - so I ordered Dr Browns wideneck 4 oz.

above was Jan 19.. today is Jan 25 thats how busy I am as a mom. I will try to update this part when I have chance btw its Tue 7:14 PM.. A very very very tiring day :'(