Tired

 What it means to be a mom? Tired, worried, burned-out, scared, loved and bliss all the same time.

When I say tired it literally burned me out, like physically mentally emotionally. The fact that it is only us, parents who are taking care of the 2 under 2 is a little too much.

I remembered there was a time I stayed the whole day with Eloise in bed, I cried and sent our pic to mama (with me crying). I totally balled out. Now breaking down is just as normal as drinking cold coffee. BTW it is still fucking pandemic so its normal to stay the whole fucking day 24x7, 7x a week AT HOME. And I am talking about 2 straight fucking years of insanity with the wild babies and helpless dad of 2. Eloise, my eldest is not even 2 yrs old and I feel God damn old hog, worn out and wasted bitch.

Lord, I am not complaining - i know right off the bat that this could be it - the end of my zen life. But man did I not see it coming that "MOM - LIFE" is no life at all. Though its ironic since my babies are my life.

Kudos to my mama who carried 3 bitches under the hood with little to know money. With papa working a far - for who knows if he can handle the bills but didnt level up and carried on with his own not so working ways - anyways.

To think that my partner will leave in  like days to work abroad is freaking me out but pretend to stay cool and maintain can handle it look but dead on the inside actually, IS INSANE.

My mama will take over. And I dont know if we can carry on given that she is already a senior citizen. Well we tried having putanginang katulong but they all scammers. Oh well those mother fuckers , making a living and benefitting from those good amo like us. Putangina nyo talaga.

What I feel: 

    Helpless...

What I look forward to: 

    Restful slumber, massage, me time, this fucking pandemic to end and travel with kids.

What I pray:

    Nobody in my family gets sick and die without getting a good life (Travel, Money, Food, Luxury) - JOY & HAPPINESS.

This is me rumbling,

KENDI

Hi loves,

I have so much on my plate but still manage to blog, finally! While everybody is still sound asleep it's 5AM and im trying to make my own coffee, I would like to review baby bottles, the ones that I experienced using with my babies.

By the way I have two under two, yup it is crazy but fulfilling and thats another story. What I am here for are the baby bottle brands as well as the age group they are best used for.

In the beginning, wait ill just fix my coffee. LOL

by the way this is my coffee moccana hazelnut flavor (normally I go for Folger, but this one is new my husband bought it) then I add bearbrand milk my fave and muscovado.

Going back, in the beginning my Eloise used Pigeon right away. I bough like 4 pcs of 4 oz. But colic became a challenge so I took my friends advice (Gel) to avoid colic to try Dr Browns. So my husband bought 9oz. I did not saw the result right away, we still opt for pigeon and then restime (Khaled's pedia advised us not to use it, it has tama daw in brain). But Eloise's colic is extreme so we resorted to constant assisted burping and acete de mansanila. I also tried the como tomo, the pink one but to no avail it's not stuck in the cabinet. It shapes like my boobs (cause I also breast feed - but not enough) but it did not last since the body which is silicon often catches hair, dirt so thats the cons.

So this is the actually photo of when I used to express my bm for Eloise. While I drink my malunggay coffee lol.

The wide neck pigeon is the one I use until now for Eloise, until I realize as per her papa, that milk is causing her teeth to decay. And front teeth already has started showing brown discoloration. I wonder if its caused by teats. And so just about awhile ago I ordered Dr Brown's bottle with sippy teats.

Here is sample vid https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mdgh83zoqrs

I bought the blue one, wide neck 9 oz.

So for Khaled, this one is tricky he is premat one week early so given his nec complications (which was mild by the way) I considered buying Dr browns wideneck for normal flow not premat. At first his papa bought Chicco boy gift set for him, knowing he really is not familiar with the best brand for his babies as usual it didnt worked, my son didnt like the teats - even Eloise. So we used the Pigeon the yellow one but again it produces so much bubbles - so I ordered Dr Browns wideneck 4 oz.

above was Jan 19.. today is Jan 25 thats how busy I am as a mom. I will try to update this part when I have chance btw its Tue 7:14 PM.. A very very very tiring day :'(