36

 Twas my birthday, a couple of hours ago.

My little family had a simple celebration. One I was not expecting, thank you to my husband who subtly surprise me with macaroni pasta, choco cake and barbeque.

Well, I guess this is what pandemic has taught many of us. To be humble, to live in the moment, to appreciate the beauty of simple life and to not expect more than a healthy family. 

I thank God, for blessings I dont deserve. I may not have the luxury of billionaires but I have what I needed most, my baby and husband, mom and dad, sisters and cousins, friends and colleagues that are healthy. I have a home to protect us, food to nourish us, electricity to entertain us especially in times like these, water for bathing and even for quick dip in pool with my baby , a job that pays well - that's all essentials that I needed. That's all, nothing more , nothing less.

Before pandemic, I have plans for me and my baby and her dad. We are so eager to earn more, live more in terms of travel and more things to acquire, new home, a car and so much things in our heads.

But all went down the drain when pandemic hits, it's like the world stops all of a sudden. Halting dreams and aspiration. Who knows when we can go back to were we once were, or if things will ever be as good as before again. I realized, the little things we took for granted, like going out with friends without face shields/ masks, watching movies with mom and sis, strolling alone in a mall just buying time.

Today, in this very moment we are stuck inside our home to prevent acquiring covid. I never imagined we can be captives for more than a year, lucky me I got my baby to keep me busy. But what about others? I myself is bored to death to be honest, I hope atleast I can bring my little one in a coffee shop or someplace to eat, but it's not possible. How we turn our world into a total mess? People selfish and greedy, that's why this happen to us.

Well, again atleast I got chu baby <3

Happy 36!

xo,

Fran

My Cup of Coffee for Tonight

In light of all the issues of the world, I got my family.

Just want to flex my little fambam , here's the photo of them right at this very moment

After our "dad-and-mom" time, Eloise fussed and I just need to cradle her. I love it when I open the curtains at night with a beautiful night view. Everything looks quiet and calm, all the lights from the streets and buildings remind me of "HOPE". That there is a hope for a beautiful tomorrow... We may never be the same as before, going out for coffee or simply window shopping without worries of catching Covid, but atleast in times like these God gave me you my little princess. And ofcourse your papa. I may not be as sweet to him as before my baby was born, my love grows deep and I appreciate him more than ever. 

This is my cup of coffee for tonight. Hot Matcha Espresso fusion. Ordered this via grab two consecutive days already ha! 

There is so much in life to be thankful for. So much things that continuously come unexpectedly on a positive way. All these surprises are gift from heavenly Father, I know it deep down.

As I look back, not far from 2021 - year 2019 up to now. A lot has changed, I got evicted from HP my beloved company whom I worked for 5 years but gifted me ample cash to start fresh, I got my condo almost the same time have it interior designed, then my honey flew home just in time for our trip to HK , Macau and Boracay, then we got engaged, then got pregnant, had new work (before hon went home from abroad), had to carry my baby for 9 months and amidst covid my husband and I managed to carry on during my delivery(May 2020) - I gave birth to this beautiful angel of ours who look exactly like her papa, then I resigned and got new work again OMG!!! That was fast good Lord.

On the side, I also treasure our family outing at Batangas, and all the holidays Christmas and Newyears spent with family (either mama's house, our home or Faye's house), also I have to move out from Brentwood bittersweet cause it's a safe place, a space that I created my own bubble to splurge with my hobby. Well I couldnt discover it if it wasnt for time in HP and staying in Brentwood all by myself. I found me. All the Pizza fridays with my family, oh how I miss the days!!!! CRY CRY CRY.

Lord, let this pandemic end. I pray to you with all my heart, if these people have to learn from their mistakes please spare us Lord and I pray that they have already realized what they need to understand.

I myself realized a lot of things, though Im used tobeing alone working at home - this made me realized that there is another side of me that needs award LOL and that is something new to me. I know pretty well how it goes cause I grew up with my mama , but now being a MOM makes sense. All makes sense and it's like Im a different person now with entirely different things to do and suddenly different perspective in life. It's challenging and rewarding at the same time. I love it. It's nice to be mom at 34 :)

Lord THANK YOU!!!

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

XO,

Fran <3

I'm Back

 Today as I sit next to my baby and husband , who are by the way sound asleep, while I sip my fave matcha espresso (grabfood from Starbucks) I contemplate all the good things that poured in my life just recently.

Well, I'm back. Back in Accenture! It's my second week already of doing technically nothing just CBTs.

I cant complain, all the horse shit I've been through my past work paid of. Not too early to tell, because honestly I still dont know the weight of work when roll-in next week. To be honest, I was floating for like almost 2 months. I resigned February 15 and was about to start in Accenture in March 1 but it moved until March 15 because of requirements ofcourse my previous manager, the ever notorious one, kept holding on not wanting to release my documents how pathetic! Having said that, I needed reinforcements from my beloved atty. Inshort sinampahan ko sya ng kaso. I have a long list of violations from that witch, and I can send her to jail if pushed. My God how many months of bullying and retarded leadership I kept mum because she's kissing ass to the head of FX! Who will they side, ofcourse the pathetic loser! I've been there so many employees have challenged, questioned her already none won. So pathetic if I speak up, the only way is to fake it until such time I get a new job and move on. Imagine I was tryikng to move on peacefully and she kept on harassing me!! After the legal battles I received no call from the two mongoloids haha kidding. Anyway this is why I dont want to remember them because all the memories kept coming back and even if I tried to make the blog sounds laid back it always boils down to rant. SHE IS MY WORSE NIGHTMARE!

Going back to "the mood" I just wanted to look back and thank God for the blessings I, my family have received. Eventhough we are in pandemic times, I beleive that God will not make us sick of COVID and other malalang sakit, I just can feel it. He is our rock, our salvation, our love. I can attest of his mercies, because how long have I waited to move out of FX? almost one year already but I havent got any offer. I was pregnant then, when I attend interviews in the morning around BGC area. I was accepting her call outside the building after interviews, I know nang huhuli ang gaga but anyway the hell do I care. And it's always about timing. In God's time.

Lord thank you, for this new work. I cannot thank you enough, nakapagpahinga ulit ako Feb and March naman haha last time buong March. Sould search March and baby time naman this 2021. All makes sense in God's time. I dont know, but amidst the horror of Covid there's peace in my heart that God is with us all the time, that He shields us from Covid. I pray Lord, that this human mistake will end na. I really hope that my baby will see the world thru my eyes, yung nakaka gala sa labas na wlang kinakatakutan na virus. Love you Lord, thank you always and forever.

xo,

Fran